The Spring 2020 Polaroid Week went down, as usual (I think), in the last week of April, and I started a day or two late and ended up rushing through most of every pack on the last day… Now, two weeks later, I still haven’t scanned everything, but I’m itching to share some photographs for a change, so let’s go!
I shot four different instant media in four different cameras during Polaroid Week: Polaroid Originals 600 in the Polaroid Impulse SE; Instax Mini Monochrome in the LC-Anstax; Instax Wide in the Fuji Instax Wide 300; and… that last one will be a surprise at some future point, once I get the photos scanned and some other things taken care of.
All cameras performed as expected, more or less; and I was once again partly disappointed with the Polaroid Originals and LC-Anstax. I store Polaroid Originals film in the fridge, often for a few months before I shoot it, and lately I’ve been getting these lines across some or all frames. I suspect it’s something to do with the refrigeration, but don’t know. And the LC-Anstax exposure has been off lately. I took the instant back off and loaded a roll of film into the LC-A and it seems to be exposing properly so far (at least the shutter sounds about right), and probably won’t be messing with the LC-Anstax again, not unless or until I pick up a new Chinese-made LC-A+. Similarly, once I get through the four packs of Polaroid I have in the fridge, I’ll probably be buying packs only as I need them and mostly shooting Instax Wide instead. The LC-Wide is just that good.
I mean, I really love the Impulse SE and the square Polaroid format, but I really can’t stand the strange results I get. Maybe it’s not storage… maybe there’s something up with the rollers? I’ll give them a clean again and see. Maybe shoot a pack in the OneStep and see if it has similar issues.
Honestly, shooting these felt like a chore. I haven’t been feeling the photography much for the past year or so. I sometimes start rolls all gung ho, and then they languish in the camera for weeks or months. My FP4+Party roll in the Zero Image 6 x 9 is sitting on frame 10 now, many weeks in. smh. I loaded a roll of 220 into the 6×7 back and started shooting selfies with the 4×5 back in 2018 and I’m maybe halfway through the roll. And the more I do this, the worse I feel about photography; and the worse I feel about photography, the more I do this. I should probably talk to somebody; this is probably evidence of some depression. But I won’t.
I just hope to dig myself out of all this funk sometime. Clearing my debts helped a ton, like a huge amount, and I thought I glimpsed the sunshine for a moment… then I was reminded of my darling, adorable wife’s student loans, and, well, I still owe a few thousand on my car. So the clouds are still dark; I can no longer see the sky.
Alhamdulillah. I did get a pretty good picture of my darling wife. And Alhamdulillah my debt is not huge, I’m still employed with no change at all due to the present (as of May 2020) Coronavirus/COVID-19 outbreak and quarantine, and I’m healthy enough of body and mind to continue, however haltingly, to shoot and write, and may Allah keep me that way.